Monday, September 7, 2009

Wishing life away...

Aren't we all just wishing our lives away?  "I wish it were the weekend...I wish this event would come already...I wish it was my birthday..."  I am guilty of it.  As an event professional, I am CONSTANTLY wishing my life away.  Always wanting that next event to come and be over with, so I can cross that sucker off my list and "move on with life".  

As I get closer to what I call my scary age (30..it's looming - and yes, I know, 30 is the new 20), I am wanting to revert back to the glorious times of middle school.  No care in the world other than to do my homework, get the straight A's, and get a chance to play.  My only care was to make sure no braces fell out for fear that I would have to pay to have them replaced...I was bad, I didn't listen to the lecture of what foods not to eat.  

If only I could go back to that moment in time, knowing what I know now about life.  A time when I wasn't wishing to wear makeup and heels, where I could go to work wearing whatever I wanted. Not worrying about grown-up things like paying the mortgage or wondering how I'm going to make it through a 14-hour day.  Not worrying about my mom and how she's dealing with having two ill people to take care of.  Not worrying about a missing relationship in life or what people think of me.  

Just not worrying...now that's something I still wish for...and something I desperately want to come true.